See you Later Letter - Story

 

It was a fine evening and I usually check my mailbox. Usually, it would be empty. Today there was a letter from him. He is none other than my guardian, a friend who was beside me in my hard times. He lost touch when we entered college. He has gone to Nations first University. Heard that he got his dream job and Place. But today this letter is a Surprise. During the last years, he uses to listen to my stories of the problem which was silly and still would give a wise solution. I would feel someone there, but still, I am reminded far as I remember. He use to say Hi and disappear in the crowds of students in the hallways. He use to write stories and poems. He also wrote Song for his Love proposal, which he didn't sing for her as she got committed before. He is different but interesting in the same way. I tore the cover with a stamp of Ludwig Beethoven. The address said it's from Germany, Munich. The letter had wet holes I just opened it and started to read...

Dear Friend

I think you remember that weird guy in the room with Poems that you won't understand and a person with quite different talents. Yeah, it is me Nikhil. Yeah, it's been a long time and I lost your contacts. But found your address. I remember the time when I would cycle through the streets to your house for those mangoes in the Tree. I still remember when your dog Jarvis bites me as I didn't give him a Mango. I think you are happy as you were. I didn't come to the Batch party as I had my Entrance exams. Maybe I missed saying goodbye and Maybe I hurt you in the last months by Ignoring you. I was not ignoring what was to be said. Sorry, why do I just justify my actions as right when I hurt you. I felt like you were a part of that time. Share memes and gossip during that time. And times when you would cry and I would ask you to stop crying and goes on till you feel better. Ah, Nice old days. If you see teardrops marks it's mine. 

It was nice to meet you in my life, but I feel lost now. I just don't know what I can do. Feels like I've just been used by people who just never gonna see me. This letter is my frustrations. I'm not like Hannah Baker, who dies and sends the post to all his friends and makes them hear the reasons. I just live with a smile and make you guys feel ashamed that you missed a good friend, Brother, Lover. You all just made me mad when I had many uncertainty problems at the end of school days. Used to make me feel that I'm useless to you guys after you guys used it. You guys would just leave me as I don't exist and would enjoy. I still remember nobody bothered to call me when the batch party happened. I didn't come because I had Entrance Exams. Because I had no person where I can say I'm gonna a See you later. 

It was goodbyes and I have no guts. I just am those silent breezes I flew through the skies and end in an infinite cycle around the earth.

My Sincere

Nikhil

I just crushed and spin it into the dustbin. Maybe I would burn them. I feel so angry with him. I felt anger because I have now zero empathy for him. Who is he to say who I can talk to. Who is he to say what I can do. 

Time passed and heard a phone call. It ringed and took it to speak. It was Lana our old batchmate. She said, "Alesa hi, nice time to talk?"

I replied yes

"Ok, it is to inform you Nikhil is no more he died in an accident on a highway in Germany. His body is coming to India tomorrow. One of the boys' mates let me know I just letting know our Batch as his Cremenation is on tomorrow evening please be there. You guys were............"

I heard nothing I fell into the empty void where I just hurt a poor soul. Now he said goodbye but I can't even make him correct that it's See you later. 

"Alesa...... Alesa"

I snap out

"Also, I will text you the address if you can be there."

I just said yes and cut the line

Yeah, the fault was mine. I started to talk to my crush who was not talking to me for many months. My thoughts it is the tie to get together in the relationship. For that, he was just a weed at that time. So I just started to be around another place with my crush. Maybe he would have searched for me, but still. He still saw me. But he said Hi and Byes. I never cared how he did. All I cared is the person who was banished after that batch party. Now should I cry or should I sleep?

The house became silent and heard a radio from somewhere playing Thenpandi Cheemayile from Nayakan. I remember Nikhil saying that after he hear the music he would stop crying. The Lyrics

Valarum piraiye theyaathe
Iniyum azhudhu thembaathe
Azhudha manasu thaangaathe
Azhudha manasu thaangaathe

Thenpaandi cheemayile
Theroadum veedhiyile
Maan pola vandhavane yaaaradichaaro
Yaaradichaaro Yaaradichaaro

meaning: O waning moon, please don't wane, Don't sob your heart out, For your tears will break my heart, For your tears will break my heart In the southern realm of the Pandiyas, In the streets where chariots race, He was skipping along like a fawn, Who could have hurt him?