Speaking Mute - 006 - "Letter to me after 10 years"
This is a letter to my 10 years future asking what I think of now.
Dear 10 year future me,
I think this is not been a long time since Sudharsan that we Speak. How are you? How are our parents? Is that you completed PhD as per your plan 10 years back. Do you still write those stories? Anyhow have you published any at that time? Is the 'Last Kiss' song got its Taylor version?, Did One direction join again? Did all things go by our plan now? all the plans. Are still those friends connected with you who you talk to 10 years before? Are you still Single now? If you are I guess our Hopeless romanticism makes us kind of ideal to get? You live in which country and city? Did our plan of going to London or Mainz in Germany happen? Did you adopt a dog again? How many friends of ours are married? If I’m not wrong, you must have read more books than now? Now I have completed around 207+ Books. Did WW3 happen? Ok, enough f these questions.
I really want to talk to you in person and know what my uncertain future will hold for me. I still don't know where these all take us to the end. But we know what we work for. We both still have the revolution to make this education a new venue where students are empowered. We need that change in the system that we look for. Still, while we get problems you going to laugh but when I wrote this these were the worst memories. maybe, that is why the worst memory remains worst for that time and gets passed on after that. After reading this, I want you to call your friends of 10 years back. Talk to them about the nice time you had with them and meet them again at least once. I know we still are fighting for awards, which is similar to Nobel in the field of work, even if we are changed or still have that Nobel dream in our eyes. May the force be with you. May the force be with us.
Yours
Sudharsan (17)
“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”
― Looking for Alaska
Heya! How are you doing? I have been reading a lot of your speaking mute. Man, it sounds like you've been through something. Hope I'm not reminding you any blurry polaroids. I hope you're okay. Surely I would think so, as these were approx. a year and a half ago. Don't worry or stress too much, like everything, this too shall pass.
ReplyDeleteTo be fair, it's not been a long time. But how do you think you've done, compared to all the what you thought you'd be doing a couple of years ago? You say you're really active in college, and I can see that too. Like, I manage to catch a glimpse of you somewhere around, and that's no joke considering I'm someone who stays in the classroom all day! I don't know how you're faring when you look at your past dreams, but I can tell you, you're doing great.
If you look at me, I've got so many dreams(who doesn't?). The thing is, I'm too timid and so safe in my comfort zone daydreaming about all the things I could do, without having to get up and try to do them. In that sense, you're doing way way better than me. Maybe it's your extrovertedness, maybe it's your drive to achieve your dreams. But I adore you. A secret admirer if you would.
I'm not sure if you're hated at all. Or if people think you're some kind of over-scene show-off brat. But I feel for a personality such as your's, you definitely will be hated. But you will also be loved by many others. If you find people hating you, for who you are, and what you do. Then don't cry. Don't feel sad or inferior. Just realize that you're performing to the wrong audience. You remind me of someone I used to have as a friend. You guys' personalities are so similar. The fact that he writes a lot of poems too is just. Looking at you gives me deja vu. And judais vu. You're just like my old friend, yet I feel like I don't know you.
I mean, I don't know you. Not too much. Tbh I'm more scared of you, which means the anonymity is what kept me writing this. Now, I'm not even sure why I'm writing a comment at all. I guess I just wanted to let you know, that I'm here. And I'll always be.
Anyways, cheers! And good luck for your last three exams!
P.s. We do have a Last Kiss(Taylor's Version) yay!!
Hi, I’m really sorry for not replying to this comment. I want to thank you for taking the time to explore my blog and read my journals (I hope you take something from this). I was reading this comment last night at 12 am, and all I can say is that it made my day start and gave me a reason to believe that my writings have not gone in vain. I don’t write as much as I used to because my writing intentions and views on things have changed. Thanks for the unasked reassurances and the adoration that you gave me through this comment. It will surely keep me going in the future. In the place where you mentioned me achieving my dreams, I’m not even a single percentage close. Maybe yes, I’m doing good, but not even close. I have taken a lot of diversions from the path I took. Unlike Robert Frost, I don’t travel on a one-way road (lol). But maybe I will surely achieve this in the future. With regards to you being scared of me for some reason, you don’t have to, in my honest opinion. I never say no to anyone talking to me. You may get some déjà vu with your past friend/person. But in all fairness, I’m not that person, so you don’t have to maintain that “anonymity” towards me. Because when you say you are there for me, it means a lot. If you want to dissolve your “anonymity”, please go ahead and do so. And thanks for the best wishes for those three exams which I finished. And yes, yay, we have Last Kiss (Taylor’s Version)! Yours Friendly, Sudharsan Sukumar
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